I lay next to her and could feel the comfort of being complete, having no wants, the feeling of finally finding something in life worth living for, her smell her warmth next to mine as I kissed her neck right behind her ear I knew I was embarking on a new kind of relationship.

Nothing I had felt before her, could compare to this, the beauty of the world and all in it was magnified by just being with this girl, she made me want to do everything that I could, to better myself and be able to be a friend and lover to her, we would talk about the future, and how I haven’t been very far from home and how she would take me to a far away places, show me wonders of the world that I haven’t seen and to enjoy all these things together.

I wanted with all my heart for this relationship to work and I new that this girl was special, she is loving and her beauty could end wars, she always smelled like vanilla and anytime I smell this sent now I crave to touch her, to kiss her, to just be with her, I am waiting for her now to return to me, I don’t know if this will happen but I will wait and pray that god will send me her back, that her heart is on the same level as mine, as I am lost without her.

Please god I ask that you let her see that what she maybe throwing away is not something that should be tossed aside, its not something that comes along everyday, its special and I know she knows that, yet outside influence and negative thoughts have clouded her mind, please no matter what happens let her be happy but let her know that I will always love her unlike anyone that I have met before.

God if she doesn’t return to please give me the strength to deal with this loss, I have already lost so much and this loss will be one of the hardest things I have ever dealt with, please god help me deal with this deep pain I feel in a constructive way as I am feeling the depression, this pain is so deep and heavy its ripping me from the inside, Please GOD let me awake from this nightmare and have her next to me again.

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